2008' Goals
1. 150 lbs First weight goal
2. 130 final weight goal
3. Single digit pants for longer than a second
4. Not to loose focus when life puts road blocks up that have nothing to do with weight loss.
5. Enjoy every day of the process of being me = Healthy and Happy and on Plan
Beginning weight 191.2
First 6 Weeks
1-7-08' 187.2 (-4) I am happy with that considering no power for 3 days.
1-14-08' 186.6 (-.6) Well not much but going in the right direction.
Heart Throb Total so far (-4.6)
1-21-08' 190.2 (+3.6) Bottom line bad planning on everything. I am getting a better handle on my time so it should get easier. I am making mom's appts in the afternoon after todays appt so that will weave better in my life and what I need to do. Heart Throb Challenge (-1)
1-28-08' 187.8 (-2.4) I had some meals off plan because I wanted it and I was ok with what would happen. I am not going to obsess(sp) over what my loss could have been if I had been op. Heart Throb Challenge (3.4)
2-4-08' Actual weigh in 2-6-08 187.8 No harm no foul I guess same as last week. I was concerned because of being sick that it wouldn't be a true and accurate weight and that by monday I would weigh more even with putting the effort in. Oh well there ya'll go.
2-11-08' 182 (-5.8) I did really great this week. YAY
6 Week's Recap Well the last 6 weeks were a move in the right direction. A total of 9.2 lbs. for the first 6 weeks of the year. It was a little bumpy trying to find a groove for what I need to do for me and mine and what my mom's needs are. The next 6 weeks will have challenges as well due to her needing to start dyalisis but I will make it work i want to build on my success .
Heart Throb Challenge =181.8 -9.4lbs Well it isn't the 20lbs I wanted but it is better than nothing. On to the next challenge.
Second 6 Weeks
Beginning Stats 181.8
2-18-08 184.6 (+3.2) Crap not a good weigh in. Well the week was ok .4 for 4 days.Then I made the cake. I don't think the cake is going to be good for me I will try it without grinding the oats and see what happens. Also Sunday was a really bad day. I had one of me throw up headaches so I didn't eat and when I did it wasn't op but stayed in my stomach. I won't go into what it was but it wasn't op. This am iam feeling better and ready to work my gut off (since I have no butt) Spring Challenge(+3.2)
2-25-08 186 (+1.4) What in the hell am I thinking oh yeah I'm not. Crap I was having a great Mon and Tues and it fell to poop. Mike made an off hand comment that I haven't thought about in a long time. He said that I acomplish anything I set my mind to. In my head I was no I don't if I did I would be at goal already. So I had him explain and he said when you wanted to be a RDA you didn't let anything get in your way you went to school and worked full time and you got it done no matter what anyone said. He is right I need to find that tunnel vision again I am going to work on that this week Spring Challenge (+4.6)
Wyatt's Start Weight 166.6
Wyatt's Weight 163.6 (-3)
3-3-08 186.4 (+.4) Not a good week obviously but I am going to have a better weigh in on the 10th Spring Challnge (+5)
Wyatt's weigh in 162.4 (-1.2)
3-10-08 186.4 (-0) Well it isn't a gain so that is good. I am glad about the 2lb challenge and I am going to focus on that. So I can not think about the big picture and have something off by 3-30 for the spring challenge. Anything for that at this point will be great so I am shooting for 179 for 3-30-08 Spring Challenge (+5)
Wyatt 163.4 (+1)
3-17-08 188.8 (+2.6) This wasn't a good week. Lots of emotional junk I was working on. Not sure I worked out solutions to due to the relationships involved but I am in better control now. Also I had St Patricks Day food and that wasn't a good choice but I knew what would happen on that score.
Do I hear the desire the need to be healthier and thinner yes. It is a small voice though and very faint not a roar like it was in the beginning or even like when I was doing good. I think it will get louder when the op meals start piling up and my loss starts again. Like I said before I need to put my blinders on and not let anything get in my way. Sometimes though that voice gets drowned out by other people to the point I don't hear it and it makes me wonder why do I keep setting myself up to not get where I want and need to be ? If you are reading this don't freak I am not giving up just not loosing and getting fusterated with myself is all I am still in and believe in the plan. I just need to care and right now that is a little hard when all I want to do is shut the hell down and not deal with my life period.
Wyatt 165 (+1.6) Not sure on that I think he has gotten taller or maybe I am getting shorter lovely NOT lol I am not going to stress about it that way he isn't upset about it.
3-24-08 190.4 (+.6) Well that is not as bad as I thought it would be but still not the right direction. I have all my food ready and will have a good week.
Wyatt didn't want to weigh and I thought I would not push it and when he is ready to get on I will update his numbers.
Second 6 Weeks Recap
Well the last 6 weeks are gone am I where I want to be no I am not. I am up almost 10 lbs since that first day of the 2nd 6 weeks. I got into the pound adding momentum and it didn't break until this moment I am focused and prepared and ready to go so the next 6 weeks will have a better result.
Third 6 Weeks
Beginning Stats 190.4
3-31-08 184.6 (-5.8) This week has been a good on plan week. I had one meal not op and as far as best choice it was middle of the road. So I gave myself a consequence of 30 extra mins on the tm. Avatar Challenge - 10
4-7-08 189.2 (+4.6) Double Damn. I didn't handle on a couple of bad emotional moments and it is showing. Today is going to be a big emotional day as well but I am going to be as prepared as I can be and do my best. Avatar Challenge ~ -10 lost it
4-14-08 189 (-.2) Well it is better than a gain I felt was going to happen. I will take it.
4-21-08 190 (+1) Better than I thought but not in the right direction. This past week sucked terribly mom with her health as you know but Mike's sister was diagnosed with brest cancer on thursday mike told me on thurs when mom was in pre-op about to be rolled into surgery. When will all this crap stop it feels like it never will sometimes we find our footing and then wham it hits again. How much can a person or a couple take really it is one side of the family or the other and at times it is at the same time. I am so tired I just want to play ostrich or runaway from home of course taking my little family with me. Does that make me selfish or a bad person I don't know and frankly sometimes I don't care.
4-28-08 191 (+1) Yeah I gained. I am still working on my schedule. Mom has a lot of appts that can take up my whole day. She still has one more surgery to go through for another more permanent access in her arm. So of course that calls for another consult (sigh). At least it is in the same building as the dialysis and kidney dr. Today she has a foot appt and thursday is her regular dr appt. So there is me most days just getting by and just doing what I can for her needs my family's needs and next to nothing for me. Yes I get that I need to take care of me so I can take care of them but in the moment it is hard to find the time and care enough when all I want to do is sleep.
5-5-08 did't weigh in
Third 6 Weeks Recap
Well it wasn't a productive last 6 weeks. Gained almost 7 lbs oh yeah that is what I am trying to do NOT. My head was not in it and it shows but I am not going to give in and stop no matter how much I feel tortured about the journey and sometimes think "F" it I quit this crap. No I am in for the long haul wether I like it or not.
5-8-08 Savannah's 6th Birthday my goal is to be 165 on this day. That is 25.4lbs away. So did not happen.
Fourth 6 Weeks
Beginning Stats 192.8 lbs I am using the weigh in on the 20th as my stats for this 6 weeks.
5-12-08 ??? Didn't give a pooh.
(5-19-08) 5-20-08 192.8 I have no idea how much I have gained and it really isn't the point at the moment. I am starting fresh so there it is my "#". I weighed in on Tuesday that is why I have 2 dates for this weigh in. This week I haven't started on plan until today and it is Thursday. Okay I have 3.5 weeks until the end of this 6 weeks so I will work towards a loss of 10 lbs.
5-26-08 193 (+.2) Well ??? maybe I needed to burp or toot ?? to be the same as last week. Hanging in and doing my best for right now.
6-2-08 192 (-1) Well that is good just call me turtle just sunning myself on the bank of the pond.
6-9-08 ??? I will weigh in on Weds no duckie for me.
6-16-08 189.6 (-3.8) A good week for food feeling a little better in attitude and motivation and momentum.
Fourth 6 Weeks Recap Sigh well it has been a busy 6 weeks. This block of 6 weeks didn't start off well but I made it end well so that is great with loss so that is good for me. SEE PAGE 2 DARLENE FOR STATS IT IS ON PAGE 3