I always had felt like a "big" person, in whatever circle of friends I hung out with, I was always the one who weighed the most, even after being anorexic and bulemic. My family is big, so apparently I was always destined to be that way. My dad had a gastralbypass surgery & now we figure that will be the only way anyone in our family loses weight. I was a size 20 at the ripe ole' age of 21.....and after serving a mission for my church, came home a size 13!!! I lost a bit more before I got married a year later & was down to a great size 12! Kids began blessing our home and my body became bigger & bigger.....It seemed the bigger the family got the bigger I got. I had my 3rd baby, and went to the plastic surgeon to see what my options were to be able to see my toes again-When I was blessed to meet Delores (& hubby) through my work, she told me that if I even thought of plastic surgery, she'd hunt me down! Unfortunately, I did not take her wisdom & run with it then. But through many difficult circumstances in the last year or 2, I am needing to focus on me as a priority-so instead of continually gaining....I HAVE TO LOSE! never thought i'd say something like this but...I WANNA BE A LOSER! I want to see my toes again, to run and play with my kids, to have energy, medications gone and to have my self esteem & life back.

If it is to be, it's up to ME!