Take care of yourself, you're worth it!

I've been through the infertility world of tests, hormone pills and depression. After 11 years of trying to get pregnant; losing 3 babies and gaining pound after pound after pound; I was finally blessed with my first successful pregnancy and birth. I was put on bed rest for 9 months and gained 100 pounds!! This was back in 1994. I delivered my baby weighing 248 pounds. I got down to 188 put continued to gain throughout the years. Ten years later; and weighing 217; I surprisingly got pregnant again (age 42). My youngest is now 4 years old and I am carrying around 242 pounds. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I don't eat because I rarely have an appetite and of course the weight does not budge. I hate to look in the mirror and I feel like my husband has lost all desire for me. It is time to make some changes!! Life is NOT getting any longer and along with being healthy, I want to feel and look sexy before this life ends.