i have felt heavy for as long as i can remember.. i see that about puberty.. i got curvy..and then more and then more.. my highest consistent weight and the weight i started this at is 232.... have tried most everything.. even was a complete and total vegan for about six months.. my body composition didnt even change.. people's threats of my becoming a waif didnt come thru!! hehehe.. and i had lost some 30 lbs once before my wedding.. but.. b y the time i wore it.. it was much "shorter" and I didnt get any taller!! i have used my fat as a protection and an excuse.. and have run back to it..when i started to get attention that made me uncomfortable.. but.. hey.. not this time.. because.. God and I, we can deal with anything.. and its not like when i was a small person.. i have the right to say no now.. and what a revelation.. i dont HAVE to make choices that i had been making.. just cuz they used to be the only choices i thought i had !! HOORAY for this!! and i mean HOORAY!! a God send indeedie.. i got the cds in august.. but didnt utilize them.. and in october.. GOT BUTT IN GEAR!! Hahahha..now its 2 yars later.. same weight and got the 6wbmo.. lets do it this time..shallwe? HEY LOOK..now its 2005.. its been 3 years that I havent utilized this tool to its fullest. This year.. I need to stay focused so I dont have to live in pain, and loathing. HEY WAIT!! Now its NOVEMBER 2005.. come on brandi.. stick and around and stick it out this time.. be sweet to you, please. HEYYYY.. now its MAY 2006. Jeez. Please. Stop destroying yourself and get on with the living. Amen. I am thinking.. this time I really have no choice. Was I ready to do this then? Obviously not. I could wallow about spending so much time not doing this, but I am not going to. I will make it to the finish line this time - and be proud OF me and FOR me. Go me, go. Welcome to again, again. 7/11/2007. Weary of me and tired of being uncomfortable in my skin. WhooOOOt! Its me. 03/27/2009. I weight 257 pounds. Nice. :{